"Hey Caitlin, can I talk to you about -----?"

"Hey Caitlin, I have to talk to someone about my relationships."

"Hey Caitlin, I'm going to kill myself, so your going to have to throw yourself over the edge to save me."


--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

"Hey, can one of you spare a minute to-"
"Sorry, I've gotta go."
"Ok, I didn't mean to bother you."

So, I want to rant, but as this will show, I don't have much luck when I need to talk to someone.

I help everyone with their problems, and have pretty much acted as the school's consellor for my entire academic career. However, I have a fair amount of problems too. I'd go to someone and try opening myself up to them, but it wouldn't matter, they'd change the subject. I got caught in between the cliques in gr.5-6, and I would try to fit into one, but nether wanted me. My best friend had left the school last year, so I tried so hard to fit in. The worst stinging comment I got was "Don't you have friends to play with?". I tried to go again with some of them, and they just moved away every time. I spent an entire half hour recess crying my eyes out. Not a single person even noticed me until I came into the school with bright red eyes, and a teacher asked if I was ok. I replied with an "I'm fine."

I've also functioned as the relationship consellor. FYI: I've never had a boyfriend. I've helped everyone get the girl or guy of their dreams, and I sat in the corner now alone with them snogging each other's faces off. I tried twice, and both times ended in complete rejection. The just completly ignored my confession. Not even a "No."

Well, I know you don't care. It's not your problem, and I'm sorry if I've bothere you.